DEALING WITH THE WAR WITHIN (Part 2)

Dealing with the War within (Part 2)

There other devil in this whole scenario is a mixture of competition & fear. When we are competing with others we don’t trust our own potential. The common fear is of being different, doing something else, and what if we fail after doing something different. 

I was there, everyone around me was talking about a certain class and I thought that I too must do it. But I was feeling little heavy about the same. I was in a conflictual universe.  I was aware of something but blocking my awareness, which was creating a lot of dis ease in me.

I started off by asking myself some questions;

Do I really want to do this?

Answer: May be at some point but with ease.

Then What is this? What is that I'm not aware of here?

What awareness am I refusing?

Sometimes we avoid the awareness because it does not fit in with our definition of being good. And since childhood we all have been asked to be good, and being good becomes more important than doing what is true to us.

There were 2 things that came out of it.

1) I realized that one of the reasons I wanted to do the class was I did not want to be left behind. The only reason I was choosing it was because of competition because in our childhood we are always told, "look at X,Y, Z what they have achieved”, and since then we cut off our own reality, what we want, to looking at others and mimicking them. That moment I knew one of the reasons I was choosing the class was because I did not want to come last, I wanted to be like the others and not be left behind. I was worried that everybody else would go ahead achieve more, but then I was doing competition there. I have to be true to me, not what everyone else is doing.

 2) But the feeling of the class still lingered on. And the next realization hit me. The class at this time was half priced. So doing it now meant that it would be way cheaper, and yes most of us will think that if you are doing it anyway at some point might as well do it now when its half the price. Right? Wrong. 

When we are doing it from that point of view we believe in lack, and I was functioning from lack, especially when you want to do other things but you choose this only because of money.

Ask : If money was not the problem what would I choose?

And yes, I got the awareness that I would choose more ease with this class, I would rather do the classes I have been wanting to do and not get caught up in competing with others or the enticement of half price. 

Society, people around us and our own judgments, at times make it so difficult us to choose for our self, what would contribute to our life. But in order to be happy and fulfilled we have to start choosing what is true for us. 

It is also about choosing for the day for the moment. No choice is wrong.

Who said I have to have only one choice. One day I can choose something and another day I can choose something else there is no right no wrong

Have fun with creating your life that is true for you

~ Be You Be True Be Awesome

~ Storyteller - Aarti Asrani